MY PROFILE!!! Thursday, December 17, 2009
Some of the greater things in life are unseen thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream...Anonymous
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
Anonymous
I don't usually look at quotes... They stood out.
I just came from church...it was nice.
Then theres the ride home
My brother takes off his shoe I tell him to do it himself so I could get on with my life.
I listen to On the Brightside and was pretty positive when my dad comes in and tells me to lower the volume of my voice!!!! MY VOICE WASN'T EVEN THAT LOUD!!! It was like how I talk....
And I tell him no because I didn't want him to ruin my mood, he could hear my mom just fine and he had the radio on!!! and he tells me no!!! I am just pissed to I turn off my ipod...on my way out my bro still doesn't have his shoe on and I have to leave the car because my mom pushed me out and my sis starts nagging at me about how I didn't do that and such and we keep arguing about different things and my whole day's overall good mood (coming from a decent day at school...I met the puppeteer of/and Tully from sesame street, I apologized to my ex 4 being a bish, I had a nice convo with my math coach).....Now i just wanted everyone to shut up...eventually my sis stopped talking but then my DAD comes in and starts saying what he aid before "You don't have to stop singing, just sing in a lower voice" (how an I supposed to express myself and feel and let out emotions like that???!!) so I tell him it isn't fair and I have a right to sing...thats when he said "I don't care what you think."
And it all just clicked...I was speechless. He left and I burst into sobs.
He ...doesn't care what I think. And my mom sided with him.
...It hurt...a lot.
I'm a person and all I want is to be heard.
They gave birth to me and are supposed to love me the most,
And I wasn't born to follow all his orders.
...or be ignored.
Whats the point in life when noone wants to hear you.
What are we without our voice?
He then called me mal cria (or however you spell it)
He thinks I'm spoiled.
I don't care what he thinks.
I have rights as a human.
Heres the song thats in my head right now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcnOC8xs_Ew
I was listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEW3NPKLQjs at church today. Thats when my church
friend starts to cry. Her sister had a miscarriage and sent Her the photo of the dead baby....isn't that weird.
I'm a bit depressed...and I've been so anti-social because of math. I swear today I almost thought I lost a friend and tied to convince myself that I didn't care (about it...or them)... luckily I didn't and sadly I do.
-sigh-
life.
I guess I should just breathe. and finish my homework, and listen to my ipod, and stare at the dark...listen to the silence as I try to sleep my thoughts away.
oh and sharon's last blog is amazing...I swear I felt like that at some point.
I don't belive in love that much though.
.....at least not anymore
just music.
night.
Labels: Breathe