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my weekend is pretty stupid.
negitive but true :(

Thanksgiving: saw the parade....noone wanted to come over besides grandma and her weird bf (yes bf) and my great great greandpa. we ate, they talked, I watched an avatar marathon.
then my dad wanteds me to come with him when he dropped them off....i usually have no choice but to go...THEN HE STARTS A DUMB LECTURE ABOUT GOD AND STUFF...the same thing that happens everytime im alone with him!

Friday: we go to the mall to get most of our (awesome) christmas gifts.

• clothes (the cute kind)
• a new wii game (the new mario 1)
• a new wii remote (pink!)
• etc.

but i may get more.
 then by 4 o'clock i was home -.-

and today...
i did
nothing.
well right now im at the sitters cuz

1. my parents STILL don't trust me home alone
2. they are going on a double date with my uncle and his (crazy) wife and they are going to eat at a nice NYC resturant and are going to see In The Heights..

i saw it but my parents NEVER do this with me..they don't even go NEAR that part of the city with us. :'(

i want to go to school in NJ.
why?
cuz i want to go to a suburbian school...and it will help my now destroyed school record.
..and i dont think ill get to go to Fashion industries for high school (good luck sharon!)

i feel so boring and slow and uninspired....
everything is too plain for me.
and im sick of everything

• my annoying school where they are always a grade ahead..and I'm not.
• my boring apartment
• always being grounded
• my dad who talks about me with my mom while im in the back seat
• feeling like im not going anywhere and im not good enough...like i need to be fixed or something

honestly...i have no clue where things are going.

-sigh- so much for an awesome vacation.

and sharon lay off the mysterygoogle...
and im petiter than u!! lol

Labels: sick

hmmm.
I don't have much going on..
besides my hear being strangled by barbed wire pic.
and my emotions
and
...........
SOME PEOPLE

and my dad...we keep arguing. sharon is right about him
i swear i would be the same way. and yea idk how she does it. being all tolerable 4 so long
i wouldn't be....i guess shes just a good bud ^-^

and other people....

not my best time elapse

i like this though. it lightens my emotions.
lol

http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://i31.photobucket.com/albums/c364/carrielynne1/cute-emo-guys/cute-emo-12.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.ohmyspace.com/imagescuteemo.html&h=339&w=330&sz=28&tbnid=m9d9cZzTwQm6fM:&tbnh=119&tbnw=116&prev=/images%3Fq%3Demo%2Bpics&usg=__6b5u8_qIl_RqPPgN6Ik0js3C0f0=&ei=jkILS9bOF4_RlAfi8Z2QBA&sa=X&oi=image_result&resnum=4&ct=image&ved=0CA0Q9QEwAw

tht is one long url.

this one is MUCH better

http://www.ponandzi.com/index.php

or this one.

http://www.azuzephre.net/azuzephre.net_-_The_Art_of_Jeff_Thomas/Home.html

i will try.
(message to....)

tah tah 4 now!!!

Labels: poo.

I usually dislike mondays
it wasn't too bad
but for some reason...
Wednesdays HATE me.
I did get an annoying dad talk....

i didn't do the plan
but i flirted a lot!!!
and
I really like Panic at The Disco
WAITING 4 THE COMEBACK!!!!
they are one of the personalities for my musical...

I think I'll work on that

and
honey mustard pringles
...do taste like honey mustard
thought you should know.

I also like the pizza, cheddar, sour cream and onion, and ranch ones...

I think my dream gift is one can of every flavor of pringles
haha

Labels: PRINGLES PLEASE

omg.
i feel like crying...
4 NO REASON
im actually really happy.

lol
i want more views.
but i want them all to be strangers
so they don't judge me
and still get to see inside my head.
lol.....
i don't get today.

Labels: sundays

i just feel like mentioning how everyone feels as if theres something wrong with them.
all my friends do...
and so do some random bloggers.
just because they question the world.
or are unique.

.....or some other reason
theres something wrong

maybe there is....
but we are not alone.
at least i don't think we are

cuz...

well, we could be wrong together.
because thats apparently how things are meant to be.
lol.

Labels: just think

i didn't write somthing else....lol...sad
today was pretty good...but i didn't do my hw.
-pouts-
today i...

• cleaned my bathroom
• cleaned my room
• organized a binder..kinda
• learned what mystery Google is.
• and ...this

and even though i didn't do anything awesome...i feel like i did.

.......sofia did what i was complaining about not doing yesterday.....GAR

sigh.
i love me
and my blues clues tee.
oh and i have to REALLY do the plan tomorrow..
now i have to calm me down
and ...yea.....i thought it was over :(
!!!!!!

and.....sharon said I can have Justin Beiber....cuz she has Jake T. Austin
.....WIN!

Labels: win

Today...

• I decided to write a blog...haha after talking to Sharon
• my aunt came this morning......idk why,
• Listened to my ipod.
• Went on shopbop.com
• avoided hw.
• though about how suckish my life is compared to those who...

1. DON'T live in apartments
2. Have cash and stuff
3. Are free enough to leave their homes and explore

All I really want is to explore the city....instead of being trapped here
.....I'm really bored

I made a new blog though!!

it's so I can add pictures of people, fashion and post ideas!!!

So yea.

thats all 4 today.

U KNOW WHAT??? I MIGHT WRITE SOMETHING ELSE THATS SMARTER AND DEEPER LATER.

Isn't life wonderful?

oh......and i like justin beiber...hes cute....and i like his hair.

Labels: isn't it???

my fellow bloggers use their blogs to talk about their BABIES!!!!!
....I'm kindah scared......I WILL NOT DO THAT WHEN I'M OLD
THIS IS EXPRESSION AND OPINIONS!!!!
NOT SHOWOff CENTRAL.....GAWD
LOL
....just needed to say something....


how do i get blog comments....hm
...oh 31 views....SWEET!


oh and sharon and I have telepathic connected brains...
...lol!!!

MA BESTIE GOTS A BLOG!!
read it....shes kinda like me only in jewnerdhippieawesomeness verion
lol
anyway...
today was someday.
one day in which i am not thinking.
just living.
I laughed a lot.
And during creative arts I drew my own eye.

I always wanted to do it
but didn't
because....well idk....it wouldn't make sense...
and i wouldn't have taken it seriously.
and I love eyes....they are my favorite feature.....they seem to hold everything.
BUT I HATE MINE...they are all brown and stuff
I want hazel eyes like my moms...and i won't hide myself with stupid color contacts...
what kind of person would I be if i did that?


I saw ragtime in school...it was interesting
and historical.
WHEN WE WERE GOING HOME, MY BUDDIS (including Sofia^)
were walking home 
WHEN WE SEE AN ACTOR AND THE DIRECTOR JUST SITTING IN A DINER.
AND I WANTED TO GO IN AND HUG HIM
....cuz he hugs this girl a lot in this show and that means he must be a REALLLY REALLLYY good hugger by now
and why does the girl he hugs in the show get to be the only one who hugs him?????...HUH?
so my new life goal is to hug him....
and I WILLL
.....somehow
U HEAR THAT TATEH (the dude)
I WILL HUG U!!!!!!!!!


and 
i plan to make a musical.
about teens (cuz im an expert...kinda)
but each one is a human embodiment of a band.
and they will sing their songs and such.


lol...i love my idea...I'm working on it.
with Sofia
lol


....IM WATCHING AN AVATAR MARATHON....as usual
gawd i need a soda...cola...


I love this blog.
....and Zuko.
and my made up character,
and such
^-^

Labels: fridays...

About the title...I'm grounded....grades
but i'll write here whenever possible....like now!

On friday I thought a lot.
I read and I was in space.
And i didn't talk to people much after school...i didn't even txt
I listened to desperate love songs and read Bleed...
idk y
...or do i


Yesterday i was at my cousins 15th birthday party.
It was nice.
I have not actual distant rels who know/are related to my cousin
i mean I've been seeing them at these parties for years but i ignored most of them...not this time lol.


Today i went to church
and did hw
i've been thinking a lottt.
i like to think
but i think wayyyy too much
....i got my friend mad at me. (want explain further)
Subject change....
I look up to people....
doesn't everyone
lol heres one of my many lists...


Idols...favorite people

1. Hayley Williams- Because shes short and loud and rebellious (what I want to be)...and Paramore's songs are AMAZING. 
2. Lady Gaga- Because shes crazy and doesn't give a damn
3. Ellen- Best talk show host .period.
4. http://www.theuniformproject.com/ this girl is so creative and inventive and has the WACKIEST things...me and my fashion
5. Joel Mchale......he's awesome
6. Craig Ferguson...also awesome
7. Mearl Aremian from this book called bleed by Laurie Faria Stolarz
8. And Charlie from the perks of being a wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

Labels: sorry sharon

No much happened school presentation.
Then i came home
Read MLIA's
and my parents are now arguing...not new
it will e over by later tomorrow.
I hate adults. Not personally but their nature.
They act like they are the smartest people
and want to know everything
but it's not always about experience
It's about thought.
I asked my mom what superpower she would pick one day
She told me she never thought about it.
I was depressed about that.
She seems to be all business.
never in the daze I feel like I'm always in
I might be the girl paramore sings about in Brick By Boring Brick
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7QgqHwd7Y8
(I also like the male version http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7QgqHwd7Y8
and the kid version  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09G2dRW73LQ&feature=related )
....i bet she already knows how everything will be for her in 5 years

I just can't help but wonder....what does she think about before she goes to sleep.

Labels: brick by boring brick

MY GRADES SUCK...AS USUAL
MY FRIEND IS MAKING THINGS HARD
MY OTHER FRIEND PROBBABLY HATES ME
AND THIS CHICK NAMED BRITT MAKES ME MAD!!!
.....stupid britt....
with her fb comments
and million complimented pics
and bf
and her cute clothes
.....yup ...im pissed
just wait....
oh and sharon has a better chance of being phychic.... tht sux!!!!
......bursting my bubble like that :(
....not that i dont want her to have powers...i just want us to be....equalish.
and my friends keep saying the plan dude likes me
LIES LIES LIESSSSS!!!!
hahaha no. im not smart whatever she happens to be compared to misss sunshine <---My opposite (which justifies why he wouldn't like my making my plan a FAIL)
or the real deserving one (hippie nerd) ..who is really smart
or pretty compared to britt.........
so yah plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz just plz


"Come one, come all you're just in time to witness my first breakdown"
                                                                                                              ~ATL

but i want this blog to mean somthing
i want a stranger to get inside my head and try to see how i work but can
so i want to talk about somthing"


my grades suck,
maybe because im lazy
maybe because of my "ADD"
but im not sure.
i mean im told im am AMAZING designer '
and im nice and i have a pretty decent amount of personality

and nobody grades me for that
noone seems to care about teh smile i put on my friends face when shes upset
or the time i waste listening to them and trying to confort them.
noone grades me for my "natural talent"
or my imagination
or witty outlook on life (usually)
and even though i have all of there
noone seems to care
it's all about a precentage on a peice of paper
and
no matter how "wonderful" i seem to be
i cant make it anywhere.
sharon is the same way....shes an amazing artist...and things differently (in a good way)
in diversity workshop we took a class
about different kinds of smart
Aurel (the wiseass) said it was pointless and made no sanse
but i understood it perfectly.....
people are smart at somethings
and i figured...im just smart when it comes to those
Aurel isn't smart when it comes to not being a wiseass
(hes awesome though)
......i dont understand this world
it's full of paradoxes.....

Labels: want to think positive

ok i am a wimp...I COULDN'T DO MY PLAN. I have good reasons though....i really do
halloween was so/so
went to the bronx zoo
saw ghost adventures
haha......

and
Sharon and sum ppl r talking about psychic ability..
i can talk to animals (i swear!!!!) and I talked to a peacock at the zoo too!

and
 took this quiz
http://test.psychiccourses.com/index.php
...heres my result......

Your personal chart and PsiQ rating

Psi Q test results - your score out of ten.

Telepathy/Empathy	06
Clairvoyance/Remote Viewing	05
Psychokinesis	05
Precognition	07
Channeling	06

Score: How to rate your points in brief

Telepathy	0-3 Poor	4-6 Good	7-10 Excellent
Clairvoyance	0-3 Average	4-5 Good	6+ Exceptional
Psychokinesis	0-5 Average	6-8 Good	9+ Amazing
Precognition	0-3 Poor	4-7 Good	8-10 Excellent
Channeling	0-3 Poor	4-7 Very Good	8-10 Talented

thats all....
i just want yo be like my invented avatar character and this is where it leads me....beh haha

Labels: beh